Today is the absolute worst.
I don’t want to be here anymore.
I seriously cannot take 3 more months of this.
Staying up late thinking about everything that’s going wrong right now, and not being able to change it. And then thinking about things in my past that I should have done differently. I really wish I had a shoulder to cry on. I just feel ridiculously depressed…
I feel like you don’t even care about me. And it’s not funny when you mention my “love handles” or say that I’m “fat” even if you are kidding. Stuff like that hurts, believe it or not. And now I just feel so self conscious around you, like I shouldn’t eat anything. And whenever you compliment me you always sound so condescending. I mean I’m pretty sure I don’t deserve that. And you always, always want to drink. And you text me back every hour or three. You’re on Facebook chat, but you can’t text me back? I’m not a clingy person, but seriously, at least to pretend to care. I’m just so sick of it.
I’m tired of putting absolutely everything into a relationship, and getting nothing back.
Got my exam back in Geology today. I failed miserably (if there was a lower grade than an F I would have gotten it). I started crying in class. Not one of my best moments.
I’m just going to curl up in a ball now.